| GOIN TO THE BEACH |
[12 Oct 2006|11:02pm] |
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I'm gone to the beach, from Friday, Oct. 13...
until Thursday, Oct. 19.
Feeling the sand between my toes...
the cool ocean water against my ankles...
the sweet sound of waves crashing...
all while smoking a delicious Camel Turkish Gold.
Yeah, that's the life.
*Shelby* --- I'm really going to miss you during the next 6 days. It's going to be really hard. But we both know that this is what we need. I hope that you'll be thinking about me, because even 300 miles from home on a relaxing beach doesn't get my mind off of you. I'm going to miss you so badly, but I know when I get back, it's going to be so wonderful. I love you so damn much, sweetheart. Have fun, and be careful in Atlanta. I'll talk to you on Thursday. I love you, suger bear.
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[08 Oct 2006|09:55pm] |
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Shelby,
I'm publicly apologizing to you for everything I've done in our relationship. I owe you an infinite amount of apologies. You commonly say that it's 50/50 as far as who starts arguments... no baby, it's not. It's more like, 95/5. It's pretty much every bit my fault, and you know that. I've made the biggest, most insane deal out of the craziest stuff, and I've been so wrong for so many things I have done. I'm not what you deserve. You should have a much better guy than me, but I just can't give up on you, because this relationship has worked out before, and by God, I will make it work again. I know you didn't want your myspace deleted. And I didn't want it to be the way it is. I know you really want one, but like I told you, I've seen what they do to relationships, and as bad as ours is, we just can't have anything else to mess it up. But I promise, baby, from the bottom of my heart, I'm going to make you happy. I will do everything that I can think to do to make up for it. And, I will do my damn best to make up for all the horrible things I've done in the past. Whatever I do, I'll say it again: I promise that you will be happy. I can't lose you baby. That's why I never mean it when I tell you that it's over and we're through. I can't live life without you. You are the very source of life to me... without you, I'm not alive. You are everything to me. You are the most beautiful and, most of the time, sweetest girl that I know. I don't want anyone else but you. You are the one. I gave you a piece of jewelry signifying that I want us to be together forever, and baby, I mean it. I want us to stick together through everything, and even if we have to fight to keep this relationship going, we'll win, because no matter what, I'm going to love you more than you can ever imagine. We always promised that we would be together forever, no matter what. I'm keeping my promise baby, and my new promise to you, is that I will make you happy. I'm changing for you, Shelby... everything will be better. I promise.
With every bit of my love,
Paul (Your sugar baby!)
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[01 Oct 2006|01:48pm] |
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Fuck myspace.
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[31 Aug 2006|06:32pm] |
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So as 90% of Pleasant Grove citizens know now, I got fired from the Pig.
Why? For stealing cigarettes. Did I steal cigarettes? Yes.
Do they have proof? Nope, just by assumption and suspicion.
The problem is, I don't take shit from people, and that's how I was there, and they didn't like that too much, so they just got rid of me anyway.
So it's time for another job search...
Meanwhile, I sold my Mitsubishi, and got a 1997 Nissan Altima. Gets about 23 mpg, depending on how I drive it. The 'Bishi got 15. So yeah, major improvement. I enjoy my car, just needs a little work here and there, but really nothing's wrong with it, I'm just a very observant mechanic who notices the slightest things.
I have an A in all my classes (Geometry, Coordinated Studies, Auto Tech), except for English, which I have a C in because of Freeman's God-awful novel tests. So yeah, school's all right for the moment.
And oh yes, me and my baby Shelby are still together... it's been over 7 months now. With hundreds more months to come...
Know of any places that are taking applications?
Leave me a comment or two anyway...
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| Good ol' surgery |
[24 Jul 2006|01:05am] |
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So yeah, Friday afternoon I had my wisdom teeth cut out of me... yeah, all 4 of them cut out. I couldn't think of a time that I had more fun.
Fortunately, it hasn't been all that bad at all. No pain, except for some reason, Saturday and Sunday, it was pretty painful to swallow. I guess they had my jaw open so damn wide that it strained something in my throat.
But other than that, I haven't had hardly any swelling, unlike most people who end up looking like a chipmunk. Yay.
My car, a 1994 Mitsubishi Diamante ES, 142000 miles, is for sale. $2300 or best offer. Buy it, so I can possibly have my daddy's truck.
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[06 Jul 2006|12:50am] |
A lot of times in life, I fail to realize that there are people that are going to have it made better than me. Some people won't have to deal with the same problems that I deal with, at the same time, I don't have to deal with certain ones they have. In the recent months, I've had a lot of difficulty realizing that. Many of you have probably seen this phrase in my AIM profile....
People are going to want you, need you, exceed you, take you, beat you, love you, hate you, play you, rate you, save you, and break you....but that's not what makes you.
Jealousy/envy, it can be a hardass problem to deal with. You look at someone, and realize, this person gets more things than I do, gets more priveleges than I get, doesn't have to buy things that I have to buy, and it can really get to you... makes you just want to either kill them or kill your own self sometimes.
This probably just a bunch of rambling on to you, but the moral of the story is, just as many people have told you, and have commonly told me... life is what you make of it. You can make very little money, have to buy everything you get, and have to deal with personal issues... it doesn't matter. If you can maintain a positive outlook on your life, then you can really come to realize what you have to be grateful for.
But no matter what your attitude is about life itself, always remember... what's truely important, is what kind of life you live.. after this life.
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[30 Jun 2006|01:28am] |
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I make 5.50 an hour.
And never work more than 20 hours a week.
And my car gets 14 miles per gallon.
Fuck.
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[28 Apr 2006|12:03am] |
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So how is life right now? Let's observe.
+ I have a job at Cedar Creek golf course where I do lawnwork. I make 7.00 an hour, without tax cut. Yet, I have no money in my wallet.
+- My grades are acceptable at the moment, but I'm having to cheat on everything I do in Biology in hope of getting a B. My Algebra grade is slowly declining.
- My cellphone got taken up today by Mrs. Maddox, of all the teachers in the world. She's being a major bitch.
+- My car is getting an average of about 16 mpg. That's like the damn Jeep. But I cut a big hole in the airbox, and it seems to be getting better top end.
- My bike won't idle. I have to hold the throttle back at stops in hopes of keeping it running.
- It feels like the whole world is trying to pull me and Shelby apart. Parents, teachers, principals... yeah, they're all in it.
+ I checked in today at 935, then checked out around 215, and am checking out tomorrow at 1:30.
+ I have a brand new set of chrome mirrors coming for the Fazer.
Any bit of money I make goes to gas and insurance. It sucks.
"You can't take life too seriously, or you'll never get out alive. If you think about the future too much, then you forget all about the present."
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| I'm In Love |
[12 Apr 2006|10:13pm] |
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The biggest news in my life right now:
I am in love with Shelby A. Dickinson. She is my life, and means more than the world to me.
We are getting married, and having a little girl. That's final.
01/20/06... best date of my life.
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[26 Mar 2006|12:06pm] |
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My baby gurl on the phone |
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I have a car.
I have a job.
I have a girlfriend.
It's good.
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[19 Mar 2006|03:57pm] |
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There is nothing in life that makes me more angry than when I have to work for something, and someone else just has it given to them on a silver platter.
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[27 Feb 2006|06:05pm] |
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8 MORE DAYS BITCH.
( ...yeah, about that... )
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[12 Feb 2006|11:35pm] |
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( Lucky Number 3 )
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[12 Feb 2006|12:45pm] |
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The search for a car is on.
I'm looking for a Nissan Maxima. It can be 90-94, but I'm preferring a 95-99 model.
Yeah, they ain't the sexiest sportiest looking thing on the street, but the they'll kick your car's ass both off the line and on a highway run.
Shelby's been gone all weekend. I've wanted to die.
She's coming home tonight. Thus, my life is good again.
Even though all of PG knows it already, I LOVE YOU SHELBY!!
Oh, and folks, don't delete me off your friend's lists. I don't update much at all, but I still read everyone's posts.
Good day.
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| I love Shelby |
[29 Jan 2006|05:06pm] |
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1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. On a scale of 1-10, what number would you rate me of my inteligence?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do I talk a lot?
9. Am I out-going?
10. Am I a posative or negative person? Please explain your response.
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 20. Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you? 21. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
22. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
23. Do you consider me a good friend?
24. What makes me, me?
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Fill this out if you're bored or you know .. if you actually want to. Whatever.
01.Who are you, what's our relationship :
02. How and where did we meet:
03. What's my middle name:
04. How long have you known me:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression:
07. My age:
08. B-day:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. My color eyes:
11. Do I have any siblings:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think I'm good looking:
18. How would you describe me to someone:
19. Would you ever date me:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me:
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?
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| Booty |
[23 Jan 2006|12:09am] |
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6 weeks, 1 day. Then I'll be a licensed driver. H yeah.
Biology sucks ass. It's horrible. We also just had a 54 point assignment that I refused to do. I despise that class. To the highest extent.
Algebra II ain't too hard at all right now. Made a 92 on the first test, and I have a 96 in the class. That works for me.
Home ec... duh, easiest and best class ever. Nothing but cooking right now, and occasionally writing some food vocab terms and recipes down. That'll put another 4 on the gpa.
My bike looks like shit. Hasn't had a bath in forever, and paint's chipping off the gas tank, and I have no left mirror since a dumbass knocked it over a while back. Parents said they'd pay for it, and that was obviously a lie, because that happened over a month ago. I need another job. Piggly Wiggly said they'd hire me back when I'm 16. They better. That was a damn easy job that I want back.
Me and Shelby are together now. And I love her more than anything.
Got a problem with that? Go to hell. I could care less.
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